LAying it all down

Dear Beloved…
Excavator of my Soul, 
You who dig down deep to the hardest of places inside,
to crack those barriers I built in myself, to myself, to anyone who dared to explore that far.
In your presence I fall apart with such perfection
that I could never possibly be put back together the same way- and why would I want to be?
I welcome you and all you bring, like a purifying rain to my desert of despairing separation,
to quench my thirst for truth.
May this be the ultimate obliteration
to illuminate all those dark places inside,
all those ways I’ve tried to hide from the truth- 
the truth that can haunt a sleeping person awake in the darkest of nights-
That All must be Released. That one day you will have to let it all Go with that last breath.
And so I welcome you Beloved teacher of humility. I bow down before you, face on the floor and I lay it all down
All that I am
and All that I thought I was.
All I gripped so tightly to over all those years….
I let it all go ….to rejoice in the liberating release of my so called control.
I feel it all and I free it all
I free this pain, this struggle, this false protection.
I free myself to heal myself
because I truly wish to be and feel to my core that
I am True to Love.
True to Self.
A clear and attuned instrument of divine love, peace and light.
Dear Beloved presence- I offer to you all this healing- the sacred sounds, the liberated sorrows and traumas, the rivers of tears….
I surrender it all to you
to water the garden of Awakening
to nourish the flowers of compassion and healing herbs of wisdom and grace. 
May my Life be a beautiful offering of Gratitude to the Great Spirit that breathes through me
May my open heart be Your Altar where blazes your eternal holy fire of Divine Love…
so that Your light may radiate through me, dispelling all illusions of unworthiness to loving and being loved.